ACIM: Lesson 7, Tuesday, April 7, 2020

I like how today’s lesson provides a “rationale” for all preceeding lessons. Brings them all together, like pieces of a puzzle and we’re now given a glimpse of the big pictures, rather than feeling the overwhelm of all the individual pieces.

I see only the past. Isn’t that the truth?!

In my concerted efforts to be mindful, to sit in meditation, to reflect and be in the moment, then of course this would not apply. But these lessons aren’t meant to apply to those times. These lessons are meant to apply to what is the majority of the time. In those other times, the minority of times, we are able to see more clearly and see the truth in these lessons. As I let those words sink in, “I see only the past,” and then look around the room and apply it to what I see, like the coffee cup example, it becomes more and more clear to me that it is the truth. It also becomes more and more clear to me how this lessons brings more clarity to the preceeding lessons.

The sentimentality I feel towards this house, this family home, is largely based on the past. Sure, I can see a future living here, but I am not as attached to the future of this home as I am to the past of this home. If I am able to ignore the past, then I can just as easily and happily see a future in another home.

ACIM: Lesson 6, Monday, April 6, 2020

I am upset because I see something that is not there.

Yesterday’s lesson said that “I am not (emotion) for the reason that I think.” Today’s lesson takes it a step further and says, “not only do you not know why you’re upset, but the reason you’re upset isn’t even real! You made it up!”

Wow! I wonder how much time I’ve spent upset for reasons that I made up on my own? As in, I didn’t have to be upset, but was choosing to be, basically.

  1. I am anxious about money because I see something that is not there.
  2. I am afraid of the Corona Virus because I see something that is not there.
  3. I feel resentment toward my siblings because I see something that is not there.

Again, I felt hesitation including the fear of the Corona Virus, but:

  1. “There are no small upsets. They are all equally disturbing to my peace of mind.”
  2. “I cannot keep this form of upset and let the others go. For the purposes of these exercises, then, I will regard them as all the same.”

What does it mean to see something that is not there? It means that I am imagining it. Creating it. I have heard it referred to as “rehearsing.” Like before a speech or a performance, you practice what you’re going to say, or how you’re going to act ahead of time. You imagine it and see yourself living it from the beginning through to the end. I think we do that in life too. We spend our time worrying about the future or the past, when neither the future or past are here NOW. Why be upset about something that isn’t here now?

Mindfulness. Living in the moment. We can’t change the past and we don’t know for sure what’s coming in the future. I also think, that if we spend our time worrying about the future, we’re actually LESS prepared for it when it arrives. There is a difference, of course, between worrying and planning. Let us plan, rather than worry. Let us live in the moment, here and now. If you are hungry, eat. If you are sleepy, sleep.

See only what is there.

  1. Nothing I see means anything.
  2. I have given everything I see all the meaning that it has for me.
  3. I do not understand anything I see.
  4. These thoughts do not mean anything.
  5. I am never upset for the reason that I think.
  6. I am upset because I see something that is not there.

ACIM: Lesson 5

Sunday, April 5, 2020

Is it, in fact, true that all forms of upset are the same?

Is it wise for me to question that which is taught in these lessons?

Perhaps if I had a more solidly educated grounds from which to pose my protest, other than simply being afraid to emerge from my “snow cave of the familiar.” For the purposes of following through with these lessons and the course as a whole, I will instead practice my ability to obediently absorb the information. Therefore, yes, all forms of upset are the same.

Upon reflection, I feel anxious about money. I feel afraid of the Corona Virus. I feel resentment toward my siblings.

  1. I am not anxious about money for the reason that I think.
  2. I am not afraid of the C.V. for the reason that I think.
  3. I am not resentful of my siblings for the reason that I think.

5.4.1 Yes!!! I definitely find it difficult to be indiscriminate in the application of this idea. I feel the fear of the C.V. is far too unique and extreme to be considered in the same way as the more trivial concerns of financial anxiety and family drama.

5.4.3 “There are no small upsets. They are all equally disturbing to my peace of mind.”

5.6.3 “I cannot keep this form of upset and let the others go. For the purposes of these exercises, then, I will regard them all as the same.”

And now this lesson makes a bit more sense. As I walked through the lesson again, more slowly, I was able to sort through the hesitations and confusion to achieve a clearer understanding of the lesson’s intent.

It is not for me to decide what I should and should not be seeing or feeling. I do not need to judge myself too harshly . All that I feel is okay. No single worry or emotion is any greater or lesser than another. They are all the same and all deserve the same level of respect.

Also, my problems are not for me to solve. At least not yet because I can’t understand them yet. I don’t feel these emotions for the reasons that I think. And for today, I will sit with that.